Can I Go On For Weeks, More Months?

Deborah Kristina
3 min readMar 19, 2023
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I tell myself that there are many people in the world who replay the same traumatic experiences in their minds from the time they wake to when they sleep (if they sleep at all) for decades.

Some people have not been able to be themselves for years because they are too apprehensive to do so.

I am aware that many individuals can’t go to work because of their anxiety and they remain home for years even when they live in poverty.

There are many people living long-term with taking medications, wondering how long they have to go on in loveless, abusive relationships, in substandard homes, feeling like they don’t matter.

I remind myself that there are many who are bedridden.

I keep thinking about those who have suffered from serious illnesses for years and years.

There are many people who may mourn over loved ones for the rest of their lives.

Mental recovery may never come for countless people.

Living with long-term unemployment hurts.

Maybe I am meant to work here and then there and then hardly work at all.

When others live with trauma, I live with not having any place to report to.

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Deborah Kristina

Author of ‘A Girl All Alone Somewhere in the World’, ‘Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl in Turkey’, ‘From Just a Girl Grown Up in America’. (Amazon.com)