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‘Does Anyone Want Me To Do Anything For Them?’
Of course it makes sense for me to question what I’m doing with myself when I’m sad.
When people around me are busy doing jobs that they love, I feel left behind.
I have gone in and out of probably ten jobs in the past fifteen years.
I have never felt happy doing any of them.
I teach English online and it feels like a waste of time as almost none of my students have shown much improvement. I have taught some of the same students for years and it gets tiring when I have to remind one, for example, that the greeting ‘How do you do?’ is out-of-date and that it’s colloquial to greet people with ‘How are you doing?’ or ‘How are you?’ or ‘How’s it going?’ or ‘How are things?’
As I am told by friends about how involved they are with their work, I find myself thinking about how I have been pulling teeth every day only for my students to forget what we’ve talked about.
I wish I could also tell people that I like doing what I do.
At times like this, I wonder how many people at this moment are also doing something that doesn’t inspire them. I don’t need to know the exact number, of course, but I know that there are many people out there who are in jobs out of obligation.
