Don’t Attack Someone Who’s Just Not That Into You
I have questioned myself on why I haven’t found my special someone yet.
More often than not, I find myself thinking a lot about my missing other half.
I’ve lost control of my mind as it always returns to thoughts of what’s wrong with me and what more I can do to pull someone in my direction.
I am guilty of blaming men I’ve expressed interest in being with.
I would like to confess that I have agreed to be friends with these men instead and have messaged and emailed them constantly. I have thought about them too much to the point of obsessing over them. I have sent photos of my best self to them. I have spoken of my travel and work experiences and interests and what I’ve done growing up and in university in order to make a great impression, hoping that they may change their minds and choose to be with me.
I have made the mistake of silently scrutinizing their actions and words towards me. I have strongly counted every hug, compliment, message, email, and greeting I’ve received from them, convincing myself that they possibly liked me. In my mind, I admit, I have embraced every word and gesture I’ve gotten, making each one into something that probably hasn’t meant anything.
