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Hiding From Others and Uncontrollably Crying
There are thousands upon thousands of residences around me.
It’s come to my mind that there are people in some of these homes that may be subject to humiliation and violence.
It’s possible that some people are slowly dying on some of the floors around me,
doing blowjobs, putting needles in themselves, wrestling with someone,
hiding from others and uncontrollably crying,
smoking and feeling worse while mindlessly watching cartoons,
staring out the window for an hour or two not knowing what to do,
having the fan on for company, screaming so hard that the heart hurts,
wishing to leave their homes but feeling overwhelmed as to how to going about doing that,
eating and/drinking uncontrollably, binge-watching TV programs to get time going,
beating a loved one in the basement,
wringing their hands with worry, shooting amateur porn,
not being able to study, checking text notifications from potential romantic partners,
tickling someone and getting pleasure out of,
replaying how to kill someone using different means,
feeling silently disappointed,
feeling as hopeless as me.
