I Am Not Okay With Living Like This

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Please let me go.

I understand that you don’t expect your twenties, thirties, forties, fifties and so forth to change.

Spending time with you is nice. I don’t want to leave you alone.

I am glad that you want me around but I want to feel a sense of accomplishment and that I really contribute to something.

I want to get out there and develop. I want to hear about more experiences. I want to know what photos that I sometimes look at in travel guides and articles really look like.

I don’t feel happy seeing my day look almost the same.

You teach me a lot. I always count on you to keep me up-to-date on pop culture and sports. It’s nice to sit on your bed and watch horror game-play and WWE wrestling matches and films and TV episodes of your choosing.

I don’t mind listening to you vent about things. I value every interaction that we have.

However, I sincerely want to do something else.

I wish I could be free from thinking about leaving you behind.

I want to go out there and not return.

I don’t feel empowered at the moment.

I have been thinking about how working a full-time job or even having two jobs somewhere…